SONG OF THE MONTH

I used to share songs that I love here on the blog, and since music is an important part of my life I think it's only fair to share what's in my playlist with everyone once in a while.

 Well enough english, lol......This is the one of my favorite song it's called "Grateful" by Rita Ora written by Diane Warren it's one of the soundtracks for the movie beyond the light. The song is one of the songs nominated for best original song this year. Ok! enough information.
        GRATEFUL

LOST

I have been struggling lately between choosing me, my friends or my family. I think that i'm going through a phase of being misunderstood a lot.  My friends say that there is a white girl in me and I don't think that is cool, but I just smile and let it pass.
     Everyone has demons and I am at that place where mine is trying to catch up with me and i'm kinda tired talking to them about it because I don't want anyone thinking I'm being needy or seeking too much attention.
I know this for sure that I would really love to change my phone numbers, go off social media, focus on myself and work on my short comings with no cares in the world. I know that this is selfish but when do I get to be selfish for me? I am exhausted and drowning I'm tired of listening I want to be heard even when I'm not talking. I really need my friends like NOW but at the same time I am not going to say a word.  I am sensitive when it comes to them, I can sense when they are not happy and try to reach out.  Even when it comes to close family members I'm the one who listens to everyone.......Right now I really want to be heard.
   Anyway that aside, the Lord is my strength and I am really going to go off for a while for me before I lose it all, I need to go and find me first.

TALENT

Rihanna is a god, I'm a music lover so I have a lot of favorite musicians, but today Rihanna is King...
I listened to one of her old songs "Cold Case Love" and I heard it in a way I haven't before, something about it got to me. ( weird, I know)
     After listening my thoughts wandered to a lot of other talented people that I know and it made me ask myself, Whats my talent? Even as I'm typing this I still don't know what my talent is.
I don't want to say writing even though a lot of stories pop into my head on a daily, I hate writing and I still can't get the hang of ''dem punctuations'' lol, So writing is out of it.
               So what is???
Isn't that something everyone has? well everyone except me lol, so I will dedicate the rest of the weekend figuring out what my talent is hahaha.
 
Laters :*

NIGHTMARE

I woke up at about past 1AM to pee, I just felt this cloud of sadness looming over me.  I was like common!! it past 1AM for God's sake who feels this way in the middle of the night.....Jeez!! well I prayed, and rejected the feeling and went back to sleep.