LOVE.RELATIONSHIP.SURVIVAL.STRENGTH.CHOICES.LIFE

I saw this powerful picture on Instagram today and decided to share it here on the blog.

I cried after seeing this picture and reading what I am about to share here.
    What do you see? She has the key to help save him but can only save him by relying on his strength to pull her out so that they both be set free! They both need each other to survive but in order too, they both have to stretch out and reach for each other through the pain and bondage to come out alive. Untimely their strength can only come from one true power and source of rescue at the centre of it all and that is God.
          I have been broken one too many times that I had to build a wall so high with no windows, and every time I hear other people's stories I add an extra brick to my wall, now it's so high that I can barely see the colours of the leafs on the trees outside. I want to bring down these walls so bad but as soon as I'm about too someone leaves and I become broken all over again. The feeling sucks! It will only take God and someone who is really patient to help these walls crumble.
   I want these fears to go away, I want to feel wanted, I don't want to ask my self "what their ulterior motives" every time.  This picture speaks to me in so many languages that I clearly understand.  
       Help me Jesus, cause these walls really have to go down in order for me to be free.

INSECURITIES

Everyone has insecurities. Even the most beautiful women in the world have areas of their lives that they aren't a 100% comfortable about and confident in.
People deal with insecurity differently; there are people who make fun of themselves, some who wrap themselves in positivity and pretend, others who constantly seek the approval and validation of people and most of all those who cover it up so well that it becomes hard to spot.
         I cover mine up, I would do almost anything to have smaller arms. Lord! They are so huge *sad face*. I'm on the big side so it's somewhat of an expectation, however, my insecurity won't let me expose them. I couldn't wear a tank top/sleeveless no matter how good anyone says I look in them...No way! I would have to throw over a scarf and cover them.
Now that's how I protect myself from myself. Instead of looking over my shoulder every second to see who's watching, I cover up and move on till I work on it. I've also noticed that people with the worst kind of insecurity are often the first to point out a flaw(s) in others, they call people ugly without provocation and belittle the successes of others. In reality, these set of people are often marred with a strong case of inferiority complex to the point where, they use their money to win friends over because they are scared that no one would really like or accept them for who they are...this same set of people are good at talking about the past mistakes of others even when the person with the mistake have since moved on to being successful.
     I think we should learn to protect ourselves from such areas that possess the potential of ruining our self confidence and relationship with others. Let's face it, once your insecurity makes you bash other people in order to feel good about yourself, or being constantly bitter with a senseless lack of appreciation for anything, you will definitely lose the people around you with time.
            Work on making the insecurities go away because at the end of the day, nothing rocks more than SELF CONFIDENCE. Fact is, insecurities only make you needy, and not everyone desires to be around a needy person all the time...it's super exhausting, you constantly have to tell him/ her that they are okay.
Bottom line, take the time to work on your insecurities be they in your physical appearances, relationships, intellect, marriage, businesses, etc. Don't just fall in love with your strength and ignore your weaknesses..... WORK ON IT!!

THE PRESENT

I was talking to my friend today, after 30 mins into our conversation she asked "Ifiok what if we had a chance to go back in time and change our mistakes, would you take it?" I thought about it for all of 20 seconds *LOL* and answered "No". She said "Be serious now" I said "I'm serious" and we continued talking about other things.
     The truth is, I have made stupid mistakes, I have regrets, they are things I wished I could change, they are people I wished I never talked to, paths I wish I never took, people I wished I never let go.....They are so many things I would have loved to change but I won't trade all that for the things I have learnt because of all my mistakes. I'm thankful for the scars that I got along the way, they made me a better person.
     So, I will live in the present, put on my seat belt and enjoy the journey of life the best way I can, See silver lining in the darkest clouds, Forgive and keep people who want to see me fail at bay, Appreciate the little I have and the good people around me. Give back, work hard on becoming a good / great woman in future. Make more mistakes and above all put God first. :)

YOU ARE UNIQUE (NEVER FORGET)

I think people take a lot that they shouldn't, Because they are scared of  being lonely. Why be in a toxic relationship/ friendship because you don't want to be alone or because everyone around you is coupling up. It doesn't make sense, I understand that as humans we need affection but at the same time it's not healthy to keep reducing your standards because someone cannot stand your uniqueness I'm all for adjusting in a relationship/ friendship but not loosing your identity in the process.
   The peace that comes with telling yourself that you are not scared of loneliness is AMAZINGGGGGG :) the minute you say those words everything magically falls in place and you get the happiness you deserve.
Celebrate your uniqueness someone out there will love you for it.