SHE BLOOMS

Today I am thankful for the gift of friends, Yesterday was something! from laughing hard and crying at the same time, Let's just say I didn't know how to express any emotion happy or sad without crying. At the end of the day I felt so much better. My friends may not always say the right things, but they know the right things to do to cheer me up. 

     There is nothing ordinary about me, I learnt long time ago that my story is significant, the way I feel things is different from other people. Good or bad I have learnt to be thankful and grateful for the lessons. 

       Thank you life, Let's try this all over again, I'm not in the business of giving up because of a bad experience. who knows this time might be better and if it's not, we will keep trying. :* 

                              

                                  Laters:) 

CLOSURE.....

I woke up early and went for a run, something I don't like doing. I ran for an hour, I still don't know how I was able to run for that long. I had given myself the whole of yesterday to be broken and get over it today,  Apparently that's not how it works cause when I came back from running tears rolled out of my eyes on their own, I tried to hold them back in but to no avail. I literally felt all my bones weakening that's when I knew that I can't just "ADULT" this one out. I have to go through this pain, I can't run away from it. I hope writing about it helps because MBA is a serious business I can't study if my head/heart is not in the right place I just can't.  My life is so disorganized in just two days, I look like a shadow of myself, I need closure.

DEAR HEART, WHY HIM?

Just when you think you have it under control, Someone comes along and messes with your heart all over again. The pain makes you relive all the other bitter memories, Makes you think you're worthless.  Makes you question everything. It just ruins every good thing you had going on in your life.
     Friends try to cheer you up, Saying things they feel you need to hear, but you are still, Cold palms and feet from lack of blood circulation, You are literally frozen, Vision blurring, And in that moment I heard my heart break, It was a small sound like  the snapping of a flower stem. Every part of my body is broken too. I feel my lungs closing, I want to lock myself in and break down, not because someone random dude decided to play with my heartstrings but because I broke down my walls, Something I never should have done.
       I took a chance and he took a swing, I took it hard. The sad thing is that I still miss him with all the broken pieces.
 I know my heart will never be the same again, but I'm telling myself that I will fine okay. 

LOVE.RELATIONSHIP.SURVIVAL.STRENGTH.CHOICES.LIFE

I saw this powerful picture on Instagram today and decided to share it here on the blog.

I cried after seeing this picture and reading what I am about to share here.
    What do you see? She has the key to help save him but can only save him by relying on his strength to pull her out so that they both be set free! They both need each other to survive but in order too, they both have to stretch out and reach for each other through the pain and bondage to come out alive. Untimely their strength can only come from one true power and source of rescue at the centre of it all and that is God.
          I have been broken one too many times that I had to build a wall so high with no windows, and every time I hear other people's stories I add an extra brick to my wall, now it's so high that I can barely see the colours of the leafs on the trees outside. I want to bring down these walls so bad but as soon as I'm about too someone leaves and I become broken all over again. The feeling sucks! It will only take God and someone who is really patient to help these walls crumble.
   I want these fears to go away, I want to feel wanted, I don't want to ask my self "what their ulterior motives" every time.  This picture speaks to me in so many languages that I clearly understand.  
       Help me Jesus, cause these walls really have to go down in order for me to be free.