YOU

I don't believe in perfection without negative and positive being experienced, negatives will drill you and break you, and the positives will make you and break you still. These two break you into consciousness of the life before you, and you will choose and your choice is what makes your life special.
         Unwana Umana.
I totally agree with this, at the end of the day we have to choose. 

OCTOBER IS HERE....

Time flies, so you have to decide what you want. And if what you want doesn't want you back, then you have to move. The pain will be what it will be but move. It's better than being stuck in a situationship (a situationship is basically a pseudo). If it's clear that you are not wanted or you are simply on the waitlist to see if a space "might" open up, just get up and move. You are awesome, what you have to offer one else has it.

Above all listen to your gut and for us women, our intuition's always on point most of the time. We can't force things to happen the way we want it to and that's okay. At the same time we can't wait forever holding hope, when we can explore other avenues. Happy new month, I wish everyone lots of love, peace and unending happiness. "Here's to October" make the best of it stand up and make changes. "Nothing happens until you move" Robin Sharma. You could try to control or manipulate the situation, it will still be the same way till something changes. 

30TH

Jojo I made it!! (Jojo is my sister) yes I finished the 100km walk/run challenge that I joined, it was really hard this last week because I haven't been feeling too good health wise all the same I pushed myself and completed it. I have lost a little weight in the process which is AWESOME.
       Completing this month's challenge really made me believe in myself, I must confess I had lost a little self confidence.  God bless the amazing women who came up with this challenge, Lord knows I needed this. I'm not going to stop walking/running just because the challenge is ending today. I have come to love it.
       

WEB OF LIES

For the past two days I have been thinking about why grownups lie. I said grown because I understand when a child lies, he or she is afraid of being punished, but when a grown ass human lie all the time, make up stories, it baffles me. I know people like this are called pathological liars and I think it's a mental disorder but common!!! when is it too much? I have been a victim, victim in the sense that I have had to question everything I ever heard this person say, I am extremely shocked.
    I'm not saying that I don't lie, I do but it's either I'm joking or the person isn't worth the truth. My father used to say that once you lie, you need to tell another lie to cover the first lie and you need another lie to cover the second one. It's an endless web.
 
      "O what a tangle web we weave when we first practice to deceive"
       Walter Scott

If I am straight with someone I expect the same thing, now trust is gone and the friendship is over for me.
I can't stand being lied to over and over and over and over. It's exhausting.
I just can't again.