2013

Internet has really dealt with me, I miss posting here and a lot has happened, well next year will be better for her dairy I will post everyday. Today is the last day am going to say goodbye to 2013 happily so much has happened I actually sat down and thought about it I have only been happy January, March, parts of September, October and November the year was not a good one for me at all, I learnt my strengths I picked up myself all the time at a point I was broken. I got into a relationship I should't have when I still had to heal and make peace with the past. I cried this year more than I did when I was a baby (hahahaha) Even though a lot of bad stuffs happened I met a few beautiful souls this year, I wish I could mention their names here they were amazing I could talk to then about all the b.s and they were never tired to listen even when what I said made no sense at all. December was the worst month of the whole year, and this month is supposed to be all groovy and joyfully well the good thing is I survived HELL YES I DID :). I found my voice this year too I learnt to say no I told more truths I leaned on God and myself only. My sister J showed me so much love this year God bless her. I learnt the beauty in being human, the strength that comes with vulnerability and hard times, the beautiful grin/ smiles after the most painful situations. I did a lot of growing am looking forward to 2014 it is going to be a good year I can feel it already.
HAPPY NEW YEAR GUYS, THANK YOU FOR READING ABOUT MY CRAPPY,AWESOME AND BEAUTIFUL LIFE SEE YOU ALL NEXT YEAR. XOXOXOXO

J'ai besoin de quelqu'un aussi

There are days that I wake up and I don't just wanna talk, not that I'm angry I just don't feel like saying a lot I use days like this to think deeper, lay all my issues on my mind's table and figure out ways to deal with them. I used to have a lot of days like this but everyone complained I started sharing my issues and so far it has not worked they just listen nod and start telling me theirs. I'm always there for people in so many ways be it just listening, talking etc and this drains me mentally and emotional cause no one is there to listen to mine so I think I deserve my quiet days to try and figure things out or I will just go insane....... I already think I need to see a therapist so till I actually see one I need this inner peace. So when someone comes up and says that I've been ignoring him/her, stop first and ask yourself that maybe I need you more this time around cause I might be struggling inside. J'ai besoin de quelqu'un aussi

GRACE-FILLED NOVEMBER

I recently started something I give every month a name I call it what I want it to be for me, weird but it has been working so far :D, I believe words have power and we should be mindful of what we say cause it could actually happen. Not meaning to sound like a pastor :) I named this month Grace-filled November. Grace speaks for me this month, God's grace. Happy Grace-Filled November to everyone.

GRAVITY!!!

I don't know why I cried when I listened to this song, Damm!!!! I'm such a cry baby hehehehehe but this song is really beautiful and the lyrics mean so much to me I think I keep falling I need to be set free. Story of my life and it could just be all in my head alone and you are already free and I'm still down. Anyway it's another fav song of mine and despite what the lyrics mean to me and do to me I still think I should share the song with everyone. So here goes........