pòrtes sé ferment (Doors are closing)

The quest of living a simple life has made me a woman with few or no secrets. Last night a friend of mine that I haven't seen in years came to visit, we went out partying with my cousin, her friend and another friend of mine. Let's call the friend who visited A, my cousin B, my other friend who stays here C to avoid confusion lol.
        Back to the gist. I left the house with no money in my wallet, I intended to use my card to pay but I couldn't. The other option was to go out into town and withdraw using an ATM and frankly I didn't want to go anywhere, from there I just wanted to go back home and sleep. So I asked C if he could help me he said sure, I gave him my ATM card told him the amount and he just walked away, I had to call him back and asked "how far you no wait make I tell you password?" he replied "hia! I know your password na, it's ****" and walked away.
I paid no mind to it till I got back home. People who are close to me know way too much about me, not just my passwords and it's all my fault I kept the door open, EVERYONE needs to have a few secrets...Haba!!
My life has been so out there to a point that people think they can predict me.
It's time to push everyone out ( hahaha) yes! PUSH being the key word. 

STORY OF MY LIFE 101

I just learnt that I suffer from the fallacy of hasty generalization.  The first thing that came to mind when I heard this was wow!!  then I smile. Of course the smile wasn't real. I'm shocked that despite the fact that this is 2015 people still have time to look at other people's lives and say trash about them.  As if life isn't hard enough!
   And this always seems to comes from the people you need something from. They'll look for everything and anything to say to enable them control your life, even if it's just for a while. I didn't know that a group of people (mostly people that could help you) are not flawed,cause if they were they won't dig into other people's past to try and hurt them.  Well! I don't think I have enough energy to impress anyone one again. I will just sit and let them tell me my life history since they are the ones living it, not me.

SONG OF THE MONTH

I used to share songs that I love here on the blog, and since music is an important part of my life I think it's only fair to share what's in my playlist with everyone once in a while.

 Well enough english, lol......This is the one of my favorite song it's called "Grateful" by Rita Ora written by Diane Warren it's one of the soundtracks for the movie beyond the light. The song is one of the songs nominated for best original song this year. Ok! enough information.
        GRATEFUL

LOST

I have been struggling lately between choosing me, my friends or my family. I think that i'm going through a phase of being misunderstood a lot.  My friends say that there is a white girl in me and I don't think that is cool, but I just smile and let it pass.
     Everyone has demons and I am at that place where mine is trying to catch up with me and i'm kinda tired talking to them about it because I don't want anyone thinking I'm being needy or seeking too much attention.
I know this for sure that I would really love to change my phone numbers, go off social media, focus on myself and work on my short comings with no cares in the world. I know that this is selfish but when do I get to be selfish for me? I am exhausted and drowning I'm tired of listening I want to be heard even when I'm not talking. I really need my friends like NOW but at the same time I am not going to say a word.  I am sensitive when it comes to them, I can sense when they are not happy and try to reach out.  Even when it comes to close family members I'm the one who listens to everyone.......Right now I really want to be heard.
   Anyway that aside, the Lord is my strength and I am really going to go off for a while for me before I lose it all, I need to go and find me first.