MY LIFE AND GRACE........IN GOD'S HANDS...

When I started this blog I wanted a place that I could write about my life, well parts of it somewhere I could think out loud, my deepest fears and emotions that I could and didn't want to deal with one in one so one could say that I started this blog as a ploy to be a little brave not mind who got to read it or who ended up being hurt with what I wrote all I wanted was to keep a little brave diary out there. :) Also after Talia Joy passed on her bravery and strength was the final push I needed to start. I wasn't in a good place when I started but as months passed things changed and I have been overwhelmed since then, still am.
In september I decided to try something different, which was to stop worrying about how things will turn up but believe and take each day as it came. That's when it all happened, I didn't just decide to stop worrying I also handed it all to God I would say that for the first time ever in my life I believed in His supremacy. I believed God existed don't get me wrong I was brought up as a christian so I knew about God and I had joined scripture union in secondary school, got born-again, did all the stuffs people did as young christians (most people) but there was this part of me that did not believe that it was possible to ask God for an impossible situation and wake up the next day to find it possible, Yes I daydream a lot but I also sit down and think about the realities and face it so if someone kept saying I would wake up to see my scar disappear that God can I would smile,nod and tell myself that maybe with time it would fade away but not disappear instantly. So when I was emotionally tired and drained I told God, You created me this is what I have been going through I have prayed, cried and done lots of things I don't even want to talk about and I'm tired and I'm leaving everything to You.
And that was it!! I started Worshiping :). God showed Me His awesomeness in ways I didn't know existed. Tears of joy is the new thing happening to me now I cry all the time I can't stop the tears from falling I AM SO THANKFUL I OWE EVERYTHING TO GOD. Whoever gets to read this as a christian no matter what you are going through please don't give up God is truly an impossibility specialist. No matter what happens in future I will never stop believing anymore, I am still a work in process but I know that God has my back.