The Little Things

"As I sat at the back of my chauffeur driven car at the traffic light, trying to get through on my mobile phone to a junior employee at my place of work. My eyes scanned the shops by the side while waiting for him to answer. I saw a man in front of his small shop, Almost not enough to contain his goods, arranging and pinning one of his shirts for sale on a board. He was doing it diligently and painstakingly till he got the right angle at which he wanted the shirt displayed. The shirt looked worn and dirtish, being carton coloured didn't help it's appearance. He moved on to adjust other items that were not set right then closed the glass door which was riddled with pictures of foreign boutiques, obviously cut from magazines. A passer-by said hello to him and he responded warmly with a genuine smile. This got me thinking of how life is full of strata. Here I was sitting in an air conditioned car being driven around with thoughts of how to have hundred of millions to my name and here was a vendor so content with making a least a sale for the day..."
            
 We have complained so much everyday about things that are not important, I know this cause I complain a lot to. We have forgotten how to count our blessings. As a little girl growing up I remember this popular song we used to sing at sunday school; 

"COUNT YOUR BLESSINGS, NAME THEM ONE BY ONE
 COUNT YOUR BLESSINGS, SEE WHAT GOD HAS DONE!
COUNT YOUR BLESSINGS, NAME THEM ONE BY ONE
AND IT WILL SURPRISE YOU WHAT THE LORD HAS DONE."

I don't think I really understood the meaning till today, YES TODAY! and am not ashamed to say this. Our blessings our more than material things, more than the fancy things we see, more than the wealth and fine things we want. It's way deeper than that. Yes life hasn't turned out the way we expected it to. The moolah isn't coming in as it should, our mates are married with kids, others are working and living comfortably and some of us still need to depend on our parents/guardians and when we wrong them, they stop our allowances to show us who has the upper hands. Some of us have lost a lot of opportunities that would have made our lives better because we didn't have the financial support to back it. We have cried in despair wondering where the problem is coming from. Some of us have had to turn religious overnight just to show God that if going to church was the problem that they have started oh, and stopped going when things become tougher. The pain and hurt has made us envious, judges, insecure, "haterz" as they say :). We have lost sight of what really is important.
         I have actually sat down for days turned off my phone, left social networks and thought about the hurts, pain, disappointments, mistakes, insults, failures, mockeries, tears etc. I often wonder will the future be any better? I am afraid of two things in my life like really afraid,( this doesn't mean that am no longer afraid of snakes or animals with teeth, damn! am even afraid of cockroaches lol)  Anyway the two things are- 1.To fail after everything I've been though, and losing my mother (the second one is a little lame, but it scares the shit outta me)* Whew!!! I said it.*
After my sister sent me the first part that I shared, telling me how her day started *bless her heart*, the song came straight to my mind  I started singing and crying at the same time, I cried for so many reasons, I have known loss, my little sister died at age 10 and 7 months, am sure she would gladly trade places to be where I am now. People are dying because of hunger, other are living in slums yet they are happy, they make the best of what they have, and here am I over-thinking of a blessed future that God has already planned out for me. I kept singing and crying finally I prayed, I asked God for forgiveness and strength and to also teach me to count my blessings and not be ungrateful. I know my life isn't perfect but it does have perfect moments and for that I should be thankful every minute of everyday.
    HAPPY FEBRUARY EVERYONE.