IOLO

I am going to live a little this year :), travel whenever am on school break, do spontaneous things, go to a dance school, music school, marshal arts school,attend writing classes( I need to perfect my use of punctuation marks cause she really doesn't understand how , . " '; : ! ~ ` < >  works, lol) .....I have been way to uptight and goody goody lol. Try out new foods  for those who know me that's a big deal for me. I love to cook, wait!! am a bad ass chef hahaha **lemme brag a little*** but it's hard for me to try out unfamiliar meals **that's either the bush girl in me talking or fear for taking risk**.
This year I am going all out **Operation suppress shy Wina** Yep that's one thing I don't like about me; the fact that I am extremely shy. I have a feeling that this year is going to be the last year am going to remain  single and we all know what happens after marriage esp as Africans-Nigerians you are basically your husband's property no more moving around anyhow. He has to come first, try getting up one morning to travel without proper permission. Aja utada k'eyen lol sorry I had to throw in my local dialect, Annang Ajid Mma!! ( Akwa Ibom State, Represent!), So this year I am going to make the most of it. IOLO!!. "I Only Live Once"

LATERS XOXO

PG

Today I have decided to share a little bit of the book I'm writing to everyone I don't have a name for it yet but I will eventually, so here it is:

"Sex with him felt like I was raped, even though he was gentle it hurt. And whenever he touched my breast tears ran down my cheeks and when he slid his hands down to my ***** I died a little every time, I let him have his way with me I pretend as if I am having the time of my life.
Women are natural actresses especially an African woman,You have no choice but to smile and act as if you are happy and content. No one wants to be divorced and bring shame on her family, so you suck it up, and act. How do I tell my husband that I dread it every time he comes back home because of the sex and he has a high sex appetite. It was better when I was pregnant cause I had a good excuse even when the doctors told me sex would help in making the delivery less painful, I was ready to face the pain than let him touch me for the next nine months. I used to love sex with my ex the mere sight of him made me drip in places I dare not mention, Love-making was amazing with him I never seem to get enough, we never seemed to get enough of each other we made love everywhere and anywhere, our hands couldn't stop touching each other. I was like a little nymphomaniac but that was my ex. Now am married and everything just changed. I love my husband, I have grown to love him or maybe it's just acceptance cause he is the father of my children and a very good father and husband but, 12 years together and the only time I have had an orgasm is when I touch myself and daydream about my ex. Am I wrong to.........

*big grin** That's all am sharing....You will have to wait for the book guys :) 

REFLECTION

Today I woke up and taught about 2013, what didn't I do right? (a lot) what would have happened if everything happened as I wanted it to?. I gave last year my all there where days I sat down and talked to myself alone and asked if there was more to give that I didn't know of I was ready to give my blood if that's what was required to make the last year a little better. And oh FRIENDS!!Yes they stabbed me big time especially the ones I held in high esteem. Humans are just complicatedly unique in their own ways and o'boy I saw a lot of characters last year, I allowed way to many people into my life and they took proper advantage. I hurt a few people as well too but the thing about that is that I didn't do it intentionally I would love to write here that I will make amends but that will be a lie cause I don't really care about it any more (Edwina not a good thing to say o o o o) I apologised but they all wanted a butt licking apology which is not possible lol.
I would have loved to rewind time and change a lot of things that happened last year but am glad that we are not given that privilege despite it all I found my voice last year and I wouldn't want to trade that for any kind of changes. 

New Beginning

Happy New year everyone, This year started quite good I got a call from someone I didn't expect I don't care how the year turns out to be that call just made my year perfect already **smiling**. Anyway 2014 is here a lot of people make new year resolutions and end up forgetting them a week after lol, I used to forget mine after a week :D so this year I set goals, my goals might sound stupid but here there are
1. Post here at least 6 times a week
2. Read the bible everyday
3. Workout everyday (yea am still on the workout journey)
4.-------------- ( not telling,lol)

Gotta go get ready cause everything starts tomorrow and yours truly has to fast for 12 days from tomorrow am also travelling back home this week. **smiling** I know someone who is going to read this and smile at the travelling part I have kept it a secret to long lemme break it to him here hahahaha.
All the best everyone Laters xoxoxo