SEPTEMBER TO REMEMBER.

I will never forget this month in hurry :). A lot happened like a lot, the good, the bad and the ugly. Friends turned their backs on me, i was admitted in the hospital cause of heart disease, i learnt how to step up my worship to God, i learnt how to depend on God and God alone, family let me down, all my pending prayers were answered, my hurt was healed, my tears stopped falling, i stood up for myself, in-short september introduced me to myself. At the end of it all i learnt a very important lesson that nothing just happens and nothing is wasted and God is on the throne. I wish i could write in details here it will be too long but everything workout for me. I have no worries i am entering october in grand style fully aware that God has my back always.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUMMY!!

     In every smile, every tear and every cheer you were always there for me through the years supporting me    and providing me with all the energy i needed in order to stand in the game called life. Happy Birthday           Mummy and thank you for everything. I love you.

Growing up was fun, I had an amazing childhood thanks to daddy but something was always missing or rather someone and that is my mother. My mother and father were separated when i was little and daddy raised us, she visited as often as she could but my relationship with her wasn't like the one i had with my father. With daddy i was free but with mummy i was a little distance i would say to myself all the time why did she leave us, i felt she didn't deserve me getting close to her cause she left.

I AM A WORSHIPPER.

I can't believe it's been more than a week since i posted something here. A lot has been happening to me in the past week God has done great and amazing things in my life. Two days before everything happened, one of my friend told me that i am an un-serious person and if am not careful that i am not going to end up well. I have learnt that sometimes life throws unexpected things at you most of the time there is nothing one can do but pass through it, learn, grow and accept at the same time. That is where i was but i could not stop these things from happening and there was nothing i could do about it at the same time, so when she said these things to me i felt terrible but i did something that i have never done before i didn't cry which is still very shocking. (lol) I WORSHIPPED the most high. I went on my knees praised and worshipped God. A day after my God moved, He did the unexpected for me He healed my pain,answered me gave me hope showed me that He never left my side. My disappointments, tears made me strong. Now i am ready to be this amazing young woman and with God on my side there is nothing that will hold me back. In others news i got a new crib Yay!!! so i will be moving out soon i had to write it here first before i tell anyone. Gotta go call few friends and tell them. Laters!!!! 

SHE GROWS LOL.

I have so much to write about a lot has happened to me in the past two day, Good things :) but i am so busy putting a lot of things in place despite all the good stuffs going on am surprisingly very calm. Years back even last year self i would have been so excited and told the whole world and jumped up and down.  (Thank God for growth) anyway i can't wait to write about it here cause God has been so faithful, He is so good am amazed at his awesomeness and love.  I really miss writing here everyday.

INSOMNIA

I have been staying awake for days now, i cant sleep even my eating is affected, fear of the unknown is eating me up inside and  i just don't know how to stop it. Its really strange cause i could sleep through an earthquake and wouldn't even blink, i fear that i might be getting to the point where nothing excites me any more i just live and be thankful for a new day and that's all. My friend says it means losing hope and faith but i feel as if i have worked on my faith level and its a bit better am just scared. As if that is not enough i have a nag beside me, my gawd!!! this person can nag for AFRICA!!! jeez. I think i need to get away from everyone around me for a while cause even the concern is suffocating me. :(
Can school just resume? maybe that will take my mind away from stuff or not.

REAL LIFE DEMENTORS.

Dementor is a creature in the harry potter series, what dementors do is consume human happiness, creating an ambiance of coldness, darkness,  misery and despair. The feed on your happiness and make one feel sad and hopeless, Enough of the harry potter dementors. They are real life dementors, oh yea it might be a myth only in harry potter but trust me they are humans who behave like dementors, they derive happiness from making others feel bad about their mistakes or regrets once a human dementor sees that you have found peace and quiet despite the fact that you have challenges they start reminding you of your failures, mistakes etc. Things that will make you feel bad and make them feel good. I have seen enough dementors, so today when one started trying to feed on my happiness i just whispered to God and silently said 'i rise above' i din't allow it get to me i kept taking deep breaths till it passed. Now what baffles me is why??? why does seeing other people in a bad place makes some other people happy? that's pure evil. Anyway that's the world we live in.

2000. THANK YOU-TOUCHED

Woah!!! I am speechless, Today i checked my blog views and i saw 2000 pageviews. I never would have thought that my blog would make anyone wanna come back after the first visit, esp as its about one girl's life and considering the fact that its barely 3 months since i started, but you guys kept coming back and i love all the comments so far, even though a lot of them's from anonymous lol, but i really want to say THANK YOU to everyone who has viewed herdiarytoday, do come back often who knows my mistakes might help you not make the same or my complicated life might help make yours better. I appreciate everyone who reads and those who will read (in future) God bless you guys. 

Music and me :)

I am yet to see anyone who doesn't love music no matter the genre music has almost the same effects on people ie; it relaxes, heals,uplifts etc. Which ever way it works for you it still has a special effect on you. Music and me, I LOVE MUSIC well except jazz cause i don't really get it, but a good song makes me feel like i can soar, makes me feel like the sky is not the limit, but just a view. The feeling is magical, unexplainable. So i have decided to share songs that i really really love here at least twice a week and hope that whoever gets to listen to it would love it to and experience the magical feeling that i do when i listen to the songs. So here is this weeks song. YAY!!!
'Glitter in the air by Pink, the lyrics talks about the power of love and taking a leap in faith anyway enjoy.

HOME SICK.

Today is one of those days that i wish i was back home, I miss my siblings so much and it hurts. It's all good that i have few friends here but none of them can be compared to my friends at home. I really feel lonely and i like to call friends here people i know cause when it comes to friends being there for each other they are just full of empty promises. In a perfect world i would have been coming back to Malaysia today after my 1 week visit to Nigeria, but things don't always turn out as we plan. So the only thing left it to wait and let God's will be done. Dear Jesus, i know your plans for me are plans for good and not for disaster, to give me a future and a hope, but i am really lonely and i miss my fam and friends back home i would love to visit for a week or 2 and come back and continue my studies please Lord hear me. Amen

MY MALAY EXPERIENCE-FEB,MARCH,APRIL 2012.

I left my country Nigeria to Malaysia in pursuit of higher education, I have always wanted to be a lawyer while all my siblings did medical related courses i never thought of it even once, all i kept dreaming off was to be a lawyer so my journey to fulfilling my dream started in feb 2012. Lets just say that it din't go the way it should have, first someone i trusted betrayed me and messed up a lot of things for me. As if that wasn't enough i had to fall in love **rolling eyes**

FOUND A NEW MUSE.

I have been working on my new book for months now but i kinda paused for a very long time, see the thing is i think i am blessed with a creative and imaginative mind i have all this ideas running through every minute, i love it oh but i don't like writing (weird) i love writing a lot but am kind of a lazy writer ( help needed). Yesterday while i listening to Jennifer Hudson's bleed for love all i wanted to do was write, it was very strange the song triggered something inside, Music has never been my muse, my muse usually is someone a lover maybe but i haven't been in love in ages so my emotions has been acting as my muse till it kinda slowed. Now i have discovered music as my new muse. I feel un-stoppable :D. Dear God help me to use what you have already given me to be a blessing and an inspiration. Amen

Jennifer Hudson - Bleed For Love

I share songs that i love here occasionally, cause i think its worth others listening to it also especially a beautiful song like this. Its one of the sound tracks in the movie "Winnie Mandela. Enjoy

TRIBUTE TO DADDY; DR EDWARD UDO AKPABIO, MB,BS(Lond) ,OON

4 years ago today our lives changed forever, before this i only read about forever in books and heard forever after in movies i never really understood forever till you left us.
It still feels like yesterday cause its hard to think of my life without you in it. i find myself missing you so much, i wish i could talk to you, you were my hero, my rock, my everything. i break down in tears often and people ask "hasn't it been years, why are you still crying?" but they will never understand the bond you had with us.
I don't think i will ever learn how not to miss you everyday.

GIFT OR CURSE?

People always find it easy to talk to me, i like to think that am a good listener and i give good advice if i have to sometimes i just shut up listen and let you cry on my shoulder, and this has been happening for years now.

TO BE OR NOT TO BE???

Why am i always in this position? i HATE love triangles it never ends well with me. And it always happens,**sighing**(hmmmm) i don tire for real. Can you (husband) just come marry me so that this ends once and for all??? I have a lot to deal with not this oooooo. Now i have to lie or tell the truth whichever so help me God.

Lettre `a mon mari ( Letter to my husband)

No day passes by without me thinking of you, i keep wondering where you are? if we have met before? when you are going to come **rolling my eyes** yes when are you going to come? because she me her is ready and waiting. It gets really lonely at nights.

How to get a man by Eniola and Funke.

Funke of life. Lol

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